Loss

My whole world centres around him; my thoughts, my dreams, my plans... I know I should stop and be independant. I don't want to lose him at all. But what if i do? Will i be able to cope without him again? The last time it was like i was only half alive, like someone was slowly ripping out my insides - it hurt so much. Ugh, i just have to go to bed, forget it all. Even if it's just for now.