Breaking point

I think I've reached a breaking point now. I just feel so numb and... I don't care anymore, i can't. I wanna give up more than anything right now.

Another rant

One minute he is really caring and adorable and i just bloody love him to pieces. The next he is cold, distant and totally blanking me. I wish i knew why he is like this, also i don't wanna feel guilty for FINALLY moving on from my "romantic" feelings for him. Because i knew nothing was ever gonna come of it and it was totally killing me. I feel like giving up, not just because of him but because of everything, it's too hard. And i know I'm coming out sounding like Mr "Take The Easy Way Out" but i don't care anymore.

My little rant of the day.

I know i will never be "normal" and i know that certain things will never happen. But just because i've resigned to my fate does NOT mean i have to be happy about it, so no one had better try and make me be because i am in no mood to be happy... I'm so completely tired and worn out, i don't even know what i am on about anymore.

My advise for the day...

Take five minutes just to ask your best friend if they're okay. It'll make them feel better. ;-)

Thoughts of an annoyed lad

... and my college has yet to change my name on some of their records even though it has been legally changed for months now!! Grr. I am hitting rock bottom where money is concerned and coursework is... Annoying, to say the least. Ah well, at least i have my health... Ha!