Move away

Things are still absolute shit. But oh well. Moving soon. Hope things get better. Ha, yeah right. Things don't exactly go according to planswhen i'm involved. Gotta be quick, only stopping to pack more stuff., See ya around!

Run away

Staying at a friends. Can't take it at my house anymore, it's getting ridiculous and the fights get even more petty. Wish i wasn't here, wish i could scape. I haven't felt this low in a long time. He's being such a good friend and i appreciate him being there so much, but there are wounds even someone you love as much as i love him can't fix. I need to go to the doctors. I don't know what's happening to me at the moment, all i know is that i broke down through pain on the bus and it's stupid and... I have to go. I need to pack.

YAAY! GOOD NEWS AT LAST!

Oh my God! I have finally been referred to the gender specialist, all i have to do now is wait for them to get back to me and then i can make an appointment. Things are finally on the move for me! I hope this all doesn't end in disappointment again.

Dreams

I had three nightmares last night. It would have been four except i woke up just before the truly horrible bit. I woke up screaming each time. I feel sick, i know the dreams aren't real but they felt it and they've really made an impact on me today. I feel anxious and unnerved. But i have to go and get on with the day because it's important... Ugh.

Okay.

Okay, good news is that i did the presentation and it went absolutely fine, there were only a few minor hitches where i couldn't keep still and stumbled over one or two words but all in all it was fine. A few classmates even came up to me and said it was really good. My other courses are all okay too, so i have less to worry about in that corner of my life. There isn't a lot of bad news. I mean, i haven't heard from him since yesterday and that would usually send me into a spiral of paranoia and guilt but I'm okay. I'm actually okay. It's a weird feeling to have.

Why?

I'm bored. And i really should be getting on with my work. Once again, i dunno why i even bothered to post this!