Whatever

Well i asked him, it came out wrong and now i think we are both confused. It's made me feel a bit better because at least i have asked him. But it's also put new things to worry about... Whatever.

Answers

I'm so confused! Do i say something and finally get my answer once and for all or do i keep quiet and wondering just so i don't disturb what we have and keep the peace. I have to be honest with myself, like if there is an answer i might not want; should i still ask the question? At least I'd know though, right? and then i can focus on the other important stuff like college, transitioning etc. Gotta go now. Let you know how it goes.

New year

Happy new year, guys! It's finally 2010 and a lot is gonna happen this year... I'm kind of nervous about the changes that are gonna happen and excited too and the end of the day i have to let all of the small insecurities go and get my life started. Maybe the best way to start this year is independently... I don't know. But i have to go now anyway and do not have time to ponder on the subject.

Fear

You know it's all changed too much, too fast when you don't recognise yourself in the mirror or your best friend in a photo taken a month ago... Considering i fear change enough as it is, I'm not surprised I've been suffering panic attacks. I need to get my life sorted. Fast. On the positive side though... Got my snake bite piercings! They look awesome. I now have about five piercings - think i'm addicted! :-) HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Hrmph! - my annoyed sound.

I'm panicking.I'm worried. I don't know why. I wish i could keep my mouth shut. I wish i could be around him more. I wish i could decide on what i really want as far as EVERYTHING IN LIFE goes!!! Gargh!!!

Just wondering...

Aren't friends supposed to be there for each other?

Teardrops on my pillow

Love sucks. I think I'd rather just be on my own than have my heart broken again. But do i have the strength to actually be alone?

Fah!

I'm pissed off. I'm mopey. And I'm off dreaming about stuff that is never gonna happen! I've been trying to sleep the day away but i just can't. My stomach hurts. It occurs to me that I've been nothing but mopey on this blog. So I'm to think of some positive things.... Oh, bollocks.