-sigh-

Sometimes i really feel as if i can't handle this life. It seems so pointless and as if the ground has just swallowed me whole and now I'm just falling and falling, further and further away from the person i aspire to be. Of course i can never be the person i want to be because he would be biologically male and have everything i don't at the moment. Being labelled a female again today didn't help. On to another subject; i have to stop turning to him for help, because A) i fear i might lose him again B) he shouldn't have to deal with my problems C) I've turned to him and he's been there enough lately and D) Oh... You get the picture; there are lots of reasons. I can't think of anything sane to write at the moment. My mind is fuzzy and i need to lie down. So, until next time.