Update

So, i've finally moved in properly and spent the night last night. It was terrifying and i'm not afraid to admit that. I'm glad i have some independence but i don't know how long it will last - after all, spend too much time alone and you go insane! Or at least that's the case for me! I feel better and a bit more in control of some situations although being told i look like a girl yesterday did not help my self esteem. It's hard to be close friends with a fellow FTM, specially since he passes so much better and is further along in transitioning. Once again, i do admit to jealousy although i think the feeling has eased since he opened up to me a while back. Now, all i want to do is get on with my own life and help him in whatever way he'll let me. At the end of the day i love him for him and jealousy is a stupid, pointless feeling to have, so i've let go of it. I'm rambling, tired and i want to go back to bed. Hope i've given you a clear enough update... I don't even know if anyone even reads this.... Oh well.