A rant

Woo! Christmas eve! And it so doesn't feel like it! Anyway, I am desperately hoping that i will have some news on Trans stuff next year, like when i will finally be going to see the gender specialist and when i will get on T. I suppose I'm sort of scared but more excited than anything. I am lucky in the respect that my family and friends are supportive (sometimes) but i know deep down they would give anything for me to just be... Well, non-trans. Except for one friend who is absolutely brilliant and who i love and appreciate more than anything! I could rant on and on about this stuff but i won't because it doesn't help matters at all. I've been spending all of my time researching surgeons and some of the results terrify me whilst others amaze me... I'm still gathering money together and maybe - MAYBE I'll get it done after my eighteenth!