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Wednesday, 23 December 2009
Just a bit of a ramble
Hey there! As you know from my other two Blogs my name is Ash and up until recently i was very... In the closet about a lot of things. But now i have decided to just be myself and stop putting on such a front just because I'm scared of how people will react. So... I'm a basically your average messed up teenager except some people don't think of me like that. They like to think of me as "gay" and "strange" and "loser". All my life i have been bullied for one thing or another. My sexuality, my transitioning, the way i dress even my taste in bloody music was hot topic in one of the many senior schools i attended. I had suffered and although i knew there were other people out there in similar situations probably coping just fine i couldn't bring myself to get out of my depressive state. It got so bad that i lost the will to live, you don't need the details but my actions cost me my best friend - who could not stand to see me dying right in front of him. Luckily though i slowly started to pull myself together but there was one problem, i was still alone. My friend came back into my life a year later and i forgave him for running out on me even though he had put me through hell - I've always been a sucker for forgiving those who i love. In a way i suppose that's what life is all about: making the best of what you have, forgiving those who are sorry (and those who you cannot live without just yet) and stuff. I have totally gone on into a ramble and have now forgotten what i intended to say in the first place. So I'm gonna leave and just wish you all a merry Yule (Christmas, whatever!) and say 'bye for now!
Labels:
being myself,
christmas,
different,
dying,
forgiving,
in the closet,
loser,
ramble,
sexuality,
teenagers,
transitioning,
yule
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