I woke up in a rather negative mood today. I don't know why but i just woke up and thought "shit, my life is utter crap." And i just started listing all the things that were wrong or could go wrong, especially concerning... you guessed it: transitioning. The cause of most of my drama and angst. Well, one of the things that causes most of my drama and angst, the other is Him... Yeah, i missed him quite a lot today. But then i got busy with clearing out my storage room in order to make room for my rowing machine - I've got rather into the whole exercise regime because i really want to gain some muscles and unless you're into the whole body building thing it can be rather difficult for a girl (i HATE using that pronoun when it concerns me... But still, i can't dodge the truth of what i biologically am for much longer, though i intend to keep certain new friends in the dark about the subject, not because i don't trust them but because i don't want the drama it might cause and because i want to limit the amount of people who know) to gain muscles easily. I have no idea what i was going to say now... the price i pay for having a short attention span and being constantly interrupted by one thing or another.
I better get going now before i start my usual inane rambles.
It's five minutes later since i originally posted this but i just remembered what i wanted to say! I visited my old home and got rather depressed because a series of realisations hit me all at once and i think i shall remain at where i am because minus a few... neighbourly disagreements and money issues, i am rather happy. I have met some lovely people who i absolutely get on with and... onto another completely different subject: my hip fucking hurts - a problem I've had since birth and my foot is fucked from a pulled muscle.... It's something i have grown rather used to sadly. but you never know, maybe one day it will get fixed and i won't have to suffer with this anymore... Wishful thinking i suppose.
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