Incoherent rambles.

It's strange. My dysphoria is increasing rapidly, but so is my confusion on the whole subject. I don't know. I've lost all sight of who i am. I seriously, just do not know who i am anymore. I'm different with everyone and when I'm alone I'm just left confused. I know i linger over the past too much and i have severe emotional problems and trust issues. I know that i am sarcastic and often pessimistic and i know that i love him. I know i am capable of love; i just don't show it. I am just a whole bundle of contradictions and maybe that's what makes me, me. But... I've lost what i was going to say so I'm gonna go and eat; i think the hunger is making my rambles even more incoherent than usual!