I can't deal

Me and him seem stronger than ever. But I've received some... information that - to be quite honest - has made me feel sick to my stomach and even more helpless than before. So celebrating our friendship seems inappropriate right now. I don't think i can deal with it all right now. I need to escape, to be free. I just want to have a life that's not surrounded by bad news and i don't want.. I just don't want this anymore.